Baby Time

Dec, 2010. We decide to visit the Doc to see how/ when we should go about TTC. I see Dr V who scans, orders blood tests and announce I have a very thin uterus lining, PCOS and my eggs dont look very good. Not the news we wanted or where expecting...Take these meds and come back on day 12. We do just that...not good news the second time around either. Uterus still doesn't look great but keep on trying with meds. Next cycle I saw a different fertility specialist who wants to do a laparoscopy and hysteroscopy to see what is going on. Wish I had seen him earlier, this could have all happened sooner. Op is booked for the 8th March, I am nervous but also excited as we are finally on the right road. The op is by far the worse thing i have ever been through.I had Mia naturally with no pain relief and a 54 hour labour and I would rather do that again than have to have the laparoscopy. It was no fun and took me about 2 weeks to recover. I really didnt think it would be that bad. Dr R found a huge cyst and Stage 2 Endo which he removed, uterus thankfully was fine. Go home, wait and come back on day 12 of cycle. We do just that. Good news, there is one happy little egg and no sign of anything that shouldn't be there. We dont try IUI this cycle as Wends isnt with me and we are meant to be going away the next day. We decide to give it a shot next cycle. 25 May is day 12. I see Dr R, he scans and finds a good egg - yet again. This is the best news ever! Somehow after receiving bad news every month you kind of expect it...Yet today is a good day! He tells  me to come back the next day for my Ovidrel shot to release the egg and then we inseminate on 27 & 28th May. What good timing - we find out on Mia's birthday whether or not we have hit the jackpot...Between Dec and now we have chosen our donor. He just stuck out really from the list we were given. We both liked him and I have a theory that at the end of the day it doesnt really matter....We inseminate twice and speak to our little swimmers and ask them to meet their friend the egg. We hope and pray and get really excited. We dont want to tell anybody what we have done but find it very hard to keep quiet so we tell close friends and a few close family members. We have two other friends going through the same things just days apart and my best friend in Oz is also TTC. In a perfect world we will all have babies together ...
The next two weeks are the longest of my life. I stop drinking coffee - just in case. I dont have any alcohol - just in case. I watch what I eat - just in case. We buy two pregnancy tests. We do them both. Negative. Heartbreaking but we try and keep positive and say "maybe it is too soon" My boobs are killing me so I must be pregnant. We hang on to that. We go for a blood test on day 14 (Mia's 6th Birthday) Negative. More heartbreak and frustration. The nurse tells us to come back in 3 days if my boobs are still sore. No need to . Monica arrives in her Red Ferrari. I cry the whole day. I really thought we would be lucky - after all of this surely it will just happen.
On a lighter note we spend a lovely family filled fun Birthday weekend together. Mia has a pamper party and a circus party. Both great at taking our minds off things. She has a ball and is totally spoilt. Our beautiful little  fairy is 6! Where have the years gone?
I sit down after all the Birthday hype is over and get my calender out. I work out that we can go back on 24th June and hopefully do our next round of IUI on the 26th and 27th. Maybe next time will be the one. We have a chat and decide we will do what it takes to have this baby. We will do a couple of rounds of IUI and then IVF if we have to.
We are going to a game farm for a long weekend. Can't wait. It will be so nice to spend some time together away from life's little pressures